Saturday, May 28, 2011

The journey

The journey to enough craft fair stuff begins with one stitch, right? The other day, I found myself having an internal dialog with myself (LOL, that is redundant, huh?) It went something like this.

  • I wish I could have $20,000 worth of stuff for my craft fairs. It would make some things so much easier.
  • much do you have?
  • Um, nothing really.
  • OK, how much have you made today?
  • Um, nothing.
  • Then how can you complain that you won't have enough? You might not have $20,000 worth, but if you don't do anything....YOU WON'T HAVE ANYTHING!
  • But I don't have time.
  • Don't give me that! Just stop playing POGO!
I'm glad that most people can't hear my thoughts. They would seriously think I am nuts! So, even though I feel pretty crappy today, I am going to do some crafting. Vlado is doing some fusible beads things now. Do you think that I can sell those as ornaments at my fair? Maybe I should bring him with me to the fairs....his cuteness might sell more. :)

Friday, May 27, 2011

I guess it's not a virus

About a week and a half ago, I started getting sick. I have asthma so I get respiratory infections more often than most. Honey told me I needed to go to the doctor....I said I was fine. So, I waited and waited...hoping and praying that I would just get better. I finally broke yesterday and went to the doctor. Diagnosis? Pneumonia. I know...I should have just listened to my husband. (He's not letting me forget that!) I would be happy at this point if I would just stop coughing. Sleeping is nearly impossible when you are hacking your lungs out. Vlado has a cough too, but he has not had a fever or acted sick at all. I think his is mostly allergies....Zyrtec seems to help him sleep. Let's hope that my antibiotic kicks pneumonia's butt and I can work next week. Gotta save all the money I can right now! :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

6 months

Today marks 6 months that I have officially been a mom. Six months ago, in Pozeravac, Serbia, the minister of adoption decreed that Vlado's name was Vladan Breen and Honey and I were his parents. He has changed so much in such a short time.

When we met him...
  • He was still in diapers
  • He only spoke 3 small phrases in Serbian (I don't want, Let's go, and It doesn't work)
  • He was so easily overwhelmed
  • He wanted nothing to do with toys
  • He would scream when upset and quite often would hit himself
  • He wandered around (as if in his own world) most of the time
  • He would seek out the dog at the foster home to kick or hit it
  • He had no color...he was so pale!
  • He had no idea what a Mama and Papa was
  • We were told he couldn't learn
And 6 months later....
  • He is almost 100% potty trained although we are still working on overnight dryness.
  • He knows so many words! He can ask for things and is obsessed with knowing what everything is called.
  • He adapts to new situations so easily now. He takes things in instead of getting overwhelmed.
  • He is still learning how to play. But leggos are his favorite now! He can play with them for hours.
  • He doesn't scream even when he is mad. And he NEVER hits himself. (He tries at school sometimes because they give him the attention he is seeking for home, he doesn't even try)
  • He doesn't have time to wander aimlessly now. He's too busy exploring.
  • He LOVES his dog! They are the ultimate "boy and his dog"
  • He has pink cheeks and so much more energy. And he has grown about 2 inches.
  • His eyes light up when we pick him up from school. He now knows that I am his Mama and Honey is his Papa!
  • He has been going to school since January. He loves numbers and the teacher said he has a "math mind." He read a small book in front of his class the other day. He knows all his colors and shapes. He has around 50 sight words that he knows and can write them.
I'm sure I'm missing a ton of other differences. It's just hard to think of them now because how he is, is just how he is. He grows everyday and has learned so much! We were told that he was borderline moderately mentally delayed. When he was tested last was estimated that he is of normal intelligence and is just delayed because of his lack of stimulation. He might have to repeat 1st grade next year, but they are thinking he will be completely caught up in no time. :)

This was the first day we met him. This might look like a smile, but all I see is nerves. He was trying to be happy.

This is him just a couple weeks ago on our way to visit his Grandparents. This is total joy smile. We were getting ready to board the ferry and he was soooooooooooo excited about being on a boat! :)

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I think he watches me

Today we were getting ready to go take lunch to Honey at work. I told Vlado to get his shoes on and I went upstairs to get dressed. He said, "lunch!" I told him that we were going to get lunch when we went to see Papa. When I came downstairs, the fridge door was open as was the pantry door. He had pulled his lunchbox out of his backpack and was packing it. He had pulled a juice box and clementine out of the fridge. He had also taken a muffin out of the muffin container and was climbing up in the pantry to get a plastic bag to put it in. I just watched him. He got the bread down and took out 2 slices....went to the fridge and got the mayo and a piece of cheese. He got a butter knife and put mayo on the bread. He couldn't figure out how to open the cheese so I did help him with that. But other than that...he did the whole thing himself. I also make up snack bags that have some pretzels or chips and a small cookie in it. He made sure to grab one of those too. It amazes me how independent he is becoming. When we first brought him home, if you gave him a snack that needed opening but didn't open it, he would just look at it. Now, not only is he opening things....he's getting them for himself. It was so cute as he was looking inside the box to make sure everything was there. He managed to remember everything that normally goes in his lunchbox. Then he shut it and said, "Go?" I was so very proud! :)

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy happy day!

Today was my first Mother's Day! Last Mother's Day wasn't as sad as so many before because we were in the process to bring our Little Man home! :) It really seems that (for me) situational depression lessons if I am actually doing something to make it better. Since I was doing something to make me a Mama.....I wasn't so upset that I wasn't one yet. (Did that make sense to anyone but me?) Anyway, I AM a Mama now so I finally got to enjoy Mother's Day.

Honey let me sleep as long as I wanted today! When I got up (at 10 - oh my word!) Honey had Vlado come sit with me. He said something to Vlado (I don't remember exactly what) but Vlado looked at me and said, "Happy Mama Day!" Oh my heart about burst! Tears immediately sprang to my eyes but somehow he knew that I wasn't sad. He got a big smile on his face and I squeezed him so tight. Then, I got to have pizza and ice cream for breakfast. :) That is my ultimate! I got a sweet card too. Honey made it online (although it is from Vlado). On the front is a picture of me and Vlado that Honey took in Serbia. Beside the picture it says

Mama! Thanks for finding me and bringing me home. I always knew you were coming. Who is coming next? :)
Needless to say....there were more tears. I also was given a pretty figurine of a Mama holding her little one. Later that day, they took me to lunch. Vlado had a surprise for all of us. As we were sitting there, the waitress came up and asked us what we wanted to drink. Vlado said, "Apple juice!" She apologized to him and told him they didn't have apple juice but told him what they did have. He changed his choice to "Orange juice!" We were very proud that he ordered his drink. When she came back to ask us if we had made our decision on what to eat, he told her that he wanted a "Hot dog!" If you remember back to November, he was almost completely non-verbal. 5 months later, he is able (and has the confidence to) order for himself in a restaurant. This waitress did not know him, but he spoke clearly enough that she knew what he was saying.....and because he used his words, he got to have exactly what he wanted for lunch! He's growing up before my eyes!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

I suck at blogging sometimes

I'm sorry for my disappearance yet again. I have been working a ton of hours at work (might as well get the hours while they are available) and then I have Vlado at night. I am NOT complaining about that fact because it is what I wanted for so long. He is finally learning to be more independent which is amazing to watch. He was treated like a baby all his life before us....and when he finally came to live with us full-time, he didn't exactly like the fact that we had him do some things for himself. Now, don't get me wrong, he still knows that we are here to do things that he can't. But he CAN do some things and is learning that it is fun being able. He can dress himself, get his breakfast (take his yogurt out of the fridge, grab a banana, get his cup so I can pour juice), put the clean silverware away, help load the dishwasher, put away his clean clothes, and there are just so many other things he is learning to do. He LOVES to help. If we are doing something, you can see his little mind working trying to figure out what he can do. When we first came home, one of Honey's sisters sent Vlado a step stool. That stool gets used everyday. When we first brought him home, he was so afraid to climb up on anything. He was afraid of so much! Now, if he sees something he wants (or needs) that is too high, he will go find his stool so he can get up to get it. Then he gets this satisfied smile that he was able to get what he wanted without help. I LOVE this boy! Over the next few days, I'm going to go back and fill in things we have done recently. I am going to actually date them like I had written them on the days they happened. So, feel free to read older days. They will be between April 1 and today....but there won't be one for everyday. LOL! And I will actually add pictures.